(Source: Eric Witchey)
by Eric Witchey
We All Make Mistakes
We all make mistakes. We all chase illusions. We all try to learn from our mistakes so we can reorient and rebuild our visions and dreams. This is life, and I do hope I keep learning until my eyes close and my heart gives its last buhthumpa.
Teaching is one of the tools of my learning. At the very least, it forces me to recognize perceptual frames of reference in my students and reconsider concepts for presentation in new frames of reference that will help the students grow. That’s the worst case.
The best case is that questions will force me out of my own frame of reference so that I have new insights. Sometimes, that takes a while and new insight only comes when a contrasting experience allows a new connection.
That’s what happened recently. I taught a Zoom class on Character Arc, Dramatic Tension, and Suspense. The concepts might be interesting, but they aren’t the point in this little stream of words. What matters is that a few days later while talking to another writer, I heard them say something that connected to and contrasted against a moment from that class.
In the class, a student asked a very specific question about a moment in a scene they had written. The question showed that they had worked at their craft long and hard and come to a moment where they could articulate a difficulty that would lead to an answer that would move them forward. Questions like that always make me happy because answering them leaves me feeling like I actually helped. Certainly, our ability to isolate concepts and articulate questions helps define the trajectory of our progress.
The student had made a mistake in their writing. The mistake generated frustration. They turned the frustration into focus and the focus into a question designed to acquire skills that would help them change their outcomes.
To me, the nature of the mistake considered then articulated as a question demonstrated that they were engaged and learning.
A few days later during the conversation with the writer, we ended up discussing a behavioral pattern in students where they make certain types of mistakes in spite of available opportunities to change their outcomes.
The insight that struck me was that mistakes can be grouped into two types: Mistakes of Progress and Mistakes of Avoidance.
I’m fond of saying flippant things like, “If you want to learn faster, make mistakes faster” or “Screw it up until it starts to make sense,” or “Dare to be bad,” or the perennial answer to how to get to Carnegie Hall, “Practice, practice, practice.” The insight that hit me was that those kinds of statements imply my underlying assumption that the developing writers are moving through layers of discomfort in the pursuit of new craft skills. The underlying implication is false. Sometimes, writers move through their discomfort in pursuit of craft. Sometimes, we become comfortable in our discomfort and engage in behaviors that preserve the discomfort with which we have become comfortable.
Mistakes of Progress
Some mistakes demonstrate the writer is practicing craft. They are leaning into the knowledge and working to change themselves into someone with new understanding. Early development writers might ask questions like the following:
- How much do character names matter?
- Do I have to have conflict?
- Are short stories worth writing?
- How do you come up with ideas?
- What is manuscript format and why does it matter?
Some writers roll their eyes at questions like these because they feel the writer is showing that they are beginners—as if that’s a sin of some kind. However, all these questions imply that the writer has encountered some level of discomfort in their pursuit of craft. Perhaps the questions are not as sophisticated as they will be later on, but they are born of engagement and pursuit of progress. Thus, they deserve respectful answers. We were all there once.
Later development versions of those same questions might look more like this:
- Does the reader internalize the cultural mythic significance of a carefully chosen name that represents a thematic role in the story?
- When working with combined Person vs. Self and Person vs. Person conflict sets, how does arrangement of tactic group climaxes influence reader internalization of emotional-psychological change?
- How do you use your short story practice as part of your development of longer works, and do you use the shorts as marketing material?
- When working with creativity brainstorming, how do you select results that become the seed values for the stories you choose to turn into projects?
- When working with manuscript format as the input to workflow for an intermediate press, what kinds of XML artifacts can I control to make the conversion to the publisher’s electronic format easier for the book designer?
Still later questions look something like this:
- Why is that student struggling with the syntactic relationship between character history and diction?
- How can I better explain the nested elements of emotional change so it is a less abstract concept related to already printed stories and more concrete as a usable tool for writers approaching a broken page or new concept?
- Why am I making the mistake of writing an essay on mistakes instead of working on the current novel I want to finish?
Which brings us to a pause.
All the questions above, except for the very last one, are questions that demonstrate the willingness to engage in discomfort in pursuit of change. They are questions born from mistakes of progress.
The last question represents. . .
Mistakes of Avoidance
Mistakes are. That’s all. Sure, I could say they are unavoidable. That would be true, but it’s sort of obvious. I could say mistakes are how we learn. I could say that people who want to learn must make mistakes. In the history of people writing about mistakes, thousands of cliches, aphorisms, and similes have been catalogued to remind us that we will all, every one of us, make lots and lots of mistakes.
Some of these cliches, aphorisms, and similes become habitual ways we think about mistakes beginning very early in life. Our relationship with mistakes can be a source of shame or guilt. It can be a comfort when faced with inevitable setbacks. It can be both.
And that’s where I find myself when I engage in mistakes of avoidance. These types of mistakes are mistakes I make then justify in some corner of my mind and heart as an indication that I’m making progress. Simultaneously, I can feel like I’m failing and moving forward even though I know I’m doing neither because of the type of mistake I’m making.
WTF, Eric? That makes no sense at all.
Except it does if I step back and really find the patience to let myself unravel my own convoluted behavior. A mistake of progress comes from engaging at the edges of my skill and discovering some element of craft that I could not have experienced otherwise and that will require me to engage in focused practice to develop.
Mistakes of avoidance happen when I avoid engaging at the edges of my skill then justify my actions as progress even though I’m resting on some imagined laurel or set of status quo skills. Mistakes of Avoidance are only actually mistakes if they are overused. We do, after all, have to do things like research elements of a story, engage in characterization studies, play with voice, research markets, and engage in revision to existing works. We have to compose new material, and we have to get some kind of feedback from peers or beta readers.
However, all of these can become mistakes of avoidance when we engage in them without also, sometimes separately and sometimes simultaneously, working at the edges of knowledge, understanding, and skill in craft.
My personal favorite mistake of avoidance is procrastination by production. When faced with a problem in a longer work, one that would require me to focus, isolate, analyze, and discover new skills in order to move the project forward, I step back and justify spending hours and hours composing new short stories. Mind you, I’m not saying finishing short stories. I’m saying composing.
I’m quite comfortable pounding out page after page after page of material I’ll never look at again. In fact, I convince myself that I’ll rewrite all those new magical pages—that they will be the best short stories I’ve ever written. I avoid the harder work by engaging in comfortable work, and the days go by. And the days go by…
This essay is another perfect example. I’m writing it instead of working on the characterization issues that are blocking progress on the current novel. I composed the first half of this essay over the course of a couple days, then I had a heart attack and quadruple bypass surgery, then as part of my recovery I finished composing this essay, and now I’m revising it after spending three days telling myself I’ll work on the novel today. Except for the whole medical emergency bit, this essay is self-referential. I am procrastinating, and I know I’m procrastinating, and I’m telling myself this is just fine because I need to do this essay “at some point.”
As with this essay, mistakes of avoidance often include an illusion of progress. While it is not one of my personal favorites, the mistake of endless unconsidered revision is one I see in writers quite often. Having drafted a novel-length manuscript or a short story-length manuscript, writers will set about revising the manuscript over and over and over again. Often, they will treat revision as if it is some subset of reading. That is, they start on page one, paragraph one, line one, word one and make changes as they move along from word to word to word.
The activity feels like progress, so it is quite easy to justify continuing the process. However, page-by-page, line-by-line revision is rarely useful in terms of craft development or even project development until the overall dramatic content of the story has been considered in terms that allow reorganization based on character changes, oppositional elements, thematic intents, and climactic convergences.
Changing a line of dialog outside of an understanding of character psychology manifesting in immediate agenda and/or personal social history as a modifier to the immediate agenda does not improve the story. It only changes the lines and provides the illusion of progress—a mistake of avoidance.
Years can pass without significant improvement for a writer if they persist in revision that “feels good” without developing a deeper understanding of why the feel good changes will improve the experience of the reader. A writer can engage in constant activity that feels like progress without ever risking improvement via mistakes of progress.
Perhaps the most common mistake of avoidance is research. “The rapture of research” is a mistake of avoidance writers often have to face. I certainly have to admit to this one. Give me a good rabbit hole to run down, and I’m happier than a door mouse at a tea party. So many of us can easily get caught up in chasing after the next interesting detail we think we “might” need to understand in order to tell a particular story. Days, weeks, and years of highly focused, organized collection of details that lead us to new details that, in turn, lead us to new details can easily be justified as progress while never pushing us up against the edges of our craft. After all, anyone who has taken a degree in any discipline, and especially anyone who has worked with formal content research in any form, has the necessary skills to chase down the underlying research on C02 scrubbers in a submarine, the consequence of designs, failures, redesigns, successes, applications in WW1 vs. WW2, and current use in modern nuclear and diesel-electric submarines.
Fun, but useless unless the story has a POV character who is an environmental engineer on such a submarine. Even then, it is only useful if that character is faced with some psychological/moral/ethical pressure that requires them to engage with that detail in a way that demonstrates personal change.
I currently get advertising emails about ETSY whalebone corsets because I spent time searching for details about hiking footwear for English women between 1780 and 1820. How much time did I spend on that research? I don’t know. I have a whole Pinterest file full of shoes and riding clothes, but I don’t actually have a character who needs them yet. I do have a character from that period who might, maybe, need to hike across a highland landscape, but I don’t yet.
A mistake of avoidance.
The illusion of progress that comes from feeling like I’m engaged while sitting firmly in the center of a comfortable set of skills I already have.
The real issue in the project has nothing to do with hiking shoes. It has to do with my having failed to face the definition of the underlying psychological scars of a rift between family members and the main character’s need to take personal responsibility for personal choices in new relationships. What a difficult, messy, emotionally triggering space for my heart and mind. Researching shoes is a lot easier than applying mindfulness skills to separate my own emotional reaction from the emotional damage of the character and the impact of that character’s personal history on their decisions in the dramatic moment.
Another personal favorite mistake of avoidance for me is to teach the same material repeatedly. First, I’m teaching rather than producing, so it’s easy to believe I’m engaged in valuable activity. I am, but it is only valuable if I don’t allow it to become more important than my own production and growth as a writer. In fact, the teaching only has value if I continue to grow, experiment, and explore my own boundaries. Teaching the same material over and over is comfortable, but it is not progress for me. It might help others, which only serves to make it more seductive as a mistake of avoidance.
Don’t get me wrong. I still have to teach old material to new students who need it. However…
Teaching can be a way of pressing against the edges of my own skills, but teaching the same material in the same way over and over is a pretty good indication that I’m falling back on complacence. Even teaching something as simple as emotion-driven fiction, a concept I’ve been teaching for over 25 years, can be seductive because it is universally useful to writers and the apparent simplicity of the concept creates a bias in the direction of repeating the form of presentation. It’s so easy to feel justified in presenting the same concept in the same way over and over. However, the result is neither production nor new engagement with the concept.
A mistake of avoidance.
By stepping back, examining the concept, seeking new layers and understanding, testing them in story development, and testing them against students, new questions will arise, new nuances of understanding will appear, and new skills will improve stories under development. The mistake of avoidance becomes a mistake of engagement because of awareness, conscious focus, desire, and application of will.
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